The idea of being a photographer was a subject we never talked about in my house where I was growing up. I actually don't know what my mom has to say on that matter still now. I never told her that I wanted to research higher education programs in art, I kinda didn't dare to mention it. I was to become a lawyer and that was it. She was one. She still is. She serves as a prosecuting attorney for Latvian government and is not gonna be messed around with. When my husband is asked what my mom is like, this is what he sais - " Wool dress-suit, short hair cut, iron fist." Yeah...
I remember being 12 years old and dressing up in some of her pencil skirts and jackets and standing on front of the mirror announcing that this is what I am going to wear when I will be a lawyer. From there on she took every opportunity to remind me of how well respected, high earning and smart these people are. It is pretty much the best idea, the only way to go if you want to succeed in life. Brainwashing? Oh, definitely!!! I learned to love the idea and she loved it that I loved it. At that point in my life my career was the only clear thing in my future.
Then I remember being 20 and standing in front of her announcing that I hate law school and am never going back there again. I hated it! I lasted two years before admitting to myself, that this stuff is not for me in million years!
I haven't gone back to college again (except for the two semesters to BYU, but the reasons and experiences that came with that is another story) clearly because I have no idea what I want to study. Photography was one of the things I have always wanted to try. Just for fun. But the expensive equipment, skill learning and actual doing just always put it somewhere in "someday". Well, now I have a camera and time and I know for sure that this is my idea and this is what I want. So, I thought, what am I waiting for....
I remember being 12 years old and dressing up in some of her pencil skirts and jackets and standing on front of the mirror announcing that this is what I am going to wear when I will be a lawyer. From there on she took every opportunity to remind me of how well respected, high earning and smart these people are. It is pretty much the best idea, the only way to go if you want to succeed in life. Brainwashing? Oh, definitely!!! I learned to love the idea and she loved it that I loved it. At that point in my life my career was the only clear thing in my future.
Then I remember being 20 and standing in front of her announcing that I hate law school and am never going back there again. I hated it! I lasted two years before admitting to myself, that this stuff is not for me in million years!
I haven't gone back to college again (except for the two semesters to BYU, but the reasons and experiences that came with that is another story) clearly because I have no idea what I want to study. Photography was one of the things I have always wanted to try. Just for fun. But the expensive equipment, skill learning and actual doing just always put it somewhere in "someday". Well, now I have a camera and time and I know for sure that this is my idea and this is what I want. So, I thought, what am I waiting for....
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